As people open to spiritual energies by meditating daily and raising their vibrations, often they find that their life gets harder, not easier. At times it will seem like the more Light they bring in, the more chaos they have in their lives!
If they weren’t warned ahead of time, this is a time when many who are new to the spiritual path will get discouraged and stop their spiritual work, going back to the limited perceptions and activities that are more comfortable—at least for a while. This usually won’t last long. Once you have awakened to the greater reality, it is difficult to retreat into closed perceptions.
The reason things seem to get worse at first is that as we bring finer energies into our systems, they will expose whatever has been blocking the Light. This means all those areas of pain that we have avoided, or didn’t even know about, will at some point be brought up for healing.
The good news is, our souls are in charge and won’t ever give us more than we can handle. The bad news is, from the perspective of the soul we may be able to handle more than what we think we can from the human perspective. From the higher view, it is easy to see where we need to go, and how to get there. And to expand our consciousness requires that we get out of our comfort zone.
The growth process is a lot like cleaning out a messy closet. First you have to take everything out. So there is more disorganization than there was before you started. If you stop there, you will have a greater mess, and if you aren’t aware of this ahead of time, you may decide that you will never try to clean out that closet again!
But if you stick with it, making piles of things that you will get rid of because they no longer fit in with your life, and organizing what you are keeping into containers that you can stack, label, and put on shelves, in time you will have a much nicer closet, and you be able to find everything.
This pattern of chaos before order is the way things work in our world, whether it is cleaning a mess or raising our consciousness. We have to stick it out to get to the time when it gets easier.
With spiritual growth, it comes in layers. The first big chunk of pain may be exposed very quickly after starting your path, and if you have tools with which to heal it, you will get through that and arrive at a place that is more comfortable. But then there is the next chunk, and the next one. This is the healing process, which has been likened to peeling the layers of an onion.
And sometimes you will think you have completely healed a pattern, only to have it seemingly come back years later. This is only another layer to be exposed and healed. If you keep bringing in Light, it will eventually shine into the deepest, darkest corners of your system. If you have been incarnating on this planet for very long, you can expect this process of clearing out the past to take many lifetimes. If you think of the process in these terms, and stick to it, finding the fastest paths and teachers, and gathering the best tools, you will be in it for the long haul. And little bits of chaos will not deter you.